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Spiritual Awakening
In 2018, my spiritual awakening began and it was not pretty. I had already began to meditate, something I learned to do during my yoga teacher training, something else I accomplished well in grad school. The more I meditated and connected to my intuition, the more I felt called to learn about my ancestors. I knew that my maternal great grandmother Rosa used to read la barraja, a particular form of Tarot. My grandmother told me she was psychic and made many predictions. When I heard these stories there always seemed to be a little bit of shame tied to them, like my grandmother felt the need to apologize for her mother’s brujeria. My family is devout Catholic as was my bruja great grandmother, but I don’t see these as mutually exclusive. I received channeled messages from my great grandmother, and then bought my first tarot deck.
Later that year, I fell into a deep episode of anxiety and depression. It lasted for weeks, I had to be real vulnerable with my family, some of who never knew the extent of my mental health issues. It was bad!! I felt like a prisoner in my own body, and I really wasn’t sure if it would ever end. I went to a psychiatrist to possibly get a prescription for meds. During the appointment, they started to list off the possible side affects of the medication, saying your symptoms can get worse before they get better. All I could think was, how much worse can this get! I realized in that moment that whatever course I took, it would requir…
